i'm having such a blah day. it's just been blahblahblah. my father being plain unreasonable yesterday and today being such a blah day. don't get me wrong i normally do love chinese new year its one of my favourite festivals actually but this year, i dont know just don't really enjoy this year as much as i did previously. meeting my relatives was okay. the same vigour and rucuous gathering that is inevitable when families come together, especially since my uncle is back from london this year. must be the first chinese new year i remember spent with his presence in a long time. but honestly speaking, such family life is just a farce and desperate attempts to relive history and pretend that everyone has not drifted apart and that everything is fine, when it isnt. i honestly dont want it to be like this when i reach adulthood. hopefully my family gatherings will be held more frequently and genuinely. not that i am overwriting the importance of chinese new year or anything and i honestly believe that blood runs thicker than water and ultimately its blood that will keep you together when things go wrong, but its sort of painfully saddening to see such gatherings happening. its a broken reflection of what a world i'm-we're- living in today. traditions and past culture just slowly dwindling away.
gotta go to school tomorrow to practice for batch and council item. rather depressing again to spend chinese new year holidays as such but i'm not complaining. we need the practice and i'll honestly willingly give it up if it means that we can put up a great show on friday. alot of things depend on it. council's been a journey and invest is like a pitstop. the batch's been there for me through everything through those difficult times both during council term and during council camp when ijust felt like giving up and for that i would willingly come back on the third day of chinese new year for council.
GOBATCH07. GO COUNCIL.
