its been a great&sucky week.
great because i've been having alot of fun. lets start with a few yeah.
went out with noelle and shian that day to the book fair at expo the book were really good and really cheap and they were all brand new yeah so got great bargains and bought 9 books. totally blew my wallet away. then we met nun and went to ikea for dinner. ate meat balls and chicken wings. chicken was oily meat balls were meaty. it was pretty okay. the waiting time sucked reached home at 11pm thankgoodness my parents are the great and liberal sort and didn't scold at all. even though it was so late.
went to sentosa with alicia! we sat on the luge 4 times each. i've had enough of luges for quite awhile. of course the singapore one cannot compare anywhere near the new zealand one but it was pretty decent all the same. and we went to kayak at the beach and laze around.
had dinner with amandas noelle shian nun it was great. everyone helped to cook except for me, and amandas hahha. we're both cooking-illiterate. literally. i guess the dinner made me realise how much things had changed since previous years and how different things were.
sucky because i just feel shitty.
i dont feel like i have lost the passion for whatever i do; whether squash or council or anything. i still have all these dreams and goals i really want to fulfill and i WANT to fulfill not just for the sake of it or anything but i've just lost the drive to achieve them. it's sort of weird i want to achieve this but i don't wanna do the stuff necessary to achieve it. maybe its just pure bummish-ness or laziness but i don't think so it's just that i feel this holiday has robbed me of all motivation to actually do anything proper and worthwhile and its freaking me out because i've always believed myself to be a very motivated and passionate person [in things im interested in that is] but its totally gone these few days which is scary because
i really need them now.
it just sucks. but ohwell.
i'll snap out of it. soon. hopefully.
