my parents are against me going to Msia for Squash now -.-
I guess its my fault since I didnt tell them that coach wasn't going and no teachers are going. They're not really THAT angry at me. In fact, i think that considering the grievious error and horrendous mistake i made, they're being surprisingly unangry. they're still pissed but at least they're not shouting and my mom is still talking to me like a normal human being.
my daddy is a different matter of course. HE'S MAD. i think. but he left the house too early to really yell at me.
i dont know what to do. i really. really. really. really. really. want to go. if i dont go, its the last chance i think because i'm not for going next year... next year there's EOY and stuff and sec4 is the most important year, i can't screw up next year. if i wanna go, this is the LAST chance.
and if i dont go, i dont know what the team is going to do. i'll feel like i let down everyone... nat, brenda and chenxi, who all got the OK sign. if i dont go, who's going with them? if i dont go, can i change and get a replacement? can i go in the first place?
yuckks.
i only have myself to blame. ugh. i should have just A) told her in the beginning and B) not told her at all.
its my fault luh. im fully aware of that and i fully take the blame.
lets just hope things work out okay.
